anger, seething, frustration...

(ooooooh. just re-read through what i just typed. this is some major venting, and most if it won't make sense to outsiders of this job. read at your own risk.)

are just a few emotions that are rolling through me right now. i'm not going to expound more except to say two things:
1) 9 YEAR OLD CLIENT COMING. 9???? that means something major has gone on in order to be placed here.
2) just an overall feeling of being veeerrrryyy unappreciated by the head honchos that run this joint. they say that we are the best family teachers that they've ever had, they say that they will do everything in their power to convince us to stay, but then their actions are the exact opposite.

(okay, so obviously i am not really going to only say 2 things. it was not realistic of me to think i could be done with just those short sentences. hold on to your hats.)

and they wonder why couples only stay in this job a year??? you know honestly, the kids can drive me bonkers sometimes. they are an absolute handful. however...we would have completely considered staying here if our bosses (above our immediate supervisor, who is awesome btw) had actually helped us to feel like we were more than the dirt off of their shoes. they are (deep down) good people, but they just treat the family teachers...which in my humble opinion...is the most important position here (don't be offended, carmella, you know we couldn't live without you) like they are the least important. "how do you feel about taking a girl client?" "you know, we really don't feel like that is a good idea, here are our reasons why." (phone rings one day later) "there will be a 10 yr. old girl arriving in your home tonight." "how do you feel about a 9 yr. old client?" "we really have concerns about a client that young and this is why." (email one hour later) "there will be a 9 yr. old client coming to your home next week."

so here i am now, yelling at my blog and pretending it is my boss:

WHY DO YOU EVEN BOTHER ASKING US IF YOU DON'T EVER LISTEN TO US? WHY DO YOU INSIST ON STRESSING US OUT CONSTANTLY AND ACT LIKE YOU DON'T EVEN CARE ABOUT IT? THE JOB IS STRESSFUL ENOUGH WITH ONLY 12 HOURS OFF A WEEK AND THE KIDS ARE ALL HOME FOR THE SUMMER. AND WITH A MOVE COMING UP IN LIKE 3 WEEKS AND WE DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE WE'RE MOVING TO YET. HOW ABOUT YOU TAKE YOUR PEA-SIZED, GRINCH-LIKE HEARTS AND COME ON OVER HERE TO WORK FOR US THE LAST FEW WEEKS AND WE WILL TAKE OFF EARLY. AND YOU CAN SHOVE THAT YEAR-END BONUS WHERE THE SUN DON'T SHINE.

phew! i feel a little better now. i think packing some boxes tonight would be semi-therpeutic. goodnight. and my apologies to those who suffered through this one.